A Place of WOW.

Money makes people weird.

Real weird.

We are in a place of wow. Real wow.

A little over a year ago we had six figures in our bank account... And

more rolling in. It happened in a matter of months. My husbands

company... For lack of better words sky rocketed.

In the beginning we had nothing.

Not. A. Thing.

Negative things really. When we got married we were in debt, six months later we were

pregnant and still in debt and in a place of wow. "wow god how are you

gonna get us through this one" He did. It was incredible how quickly

things around. In the process a lot of amazing things

happened, a lot of horrible things happened as well- more about that

later.

So six figures saved up in a bank account with more to spare. That's

the nutshell.

The truth is this- we were foolish.

We were greedy. We were ignoring God.

We tried convincing ourselves that we weren't ignoring him.

Lucky for us he loves us more then that. More than any greed, pleasure

or anything Satan has tempted us with. So he graciously took it away.

All of it. We kept wondering why things weren't picking up, but made

lifestyle and spending changes too little too late.

There is so much more to this but the real point is this- we had all

this money, our marriage was miserable, our friends were 10/1

unbelievers, our kids couldn't even see our hearts bc they were

covered in filth. Now it's all gone. Praise god.

This is my view. J's is a little different. He can't help going back

to the "a man who doesn't provide for his family is worse then an

unbeliever" which I get. And he agrees that god saved us from

ourselves but I know it's hard on him. It's hard to go from looking a

homes for sale in ridiculous neighborhoods to being two weeks into a

month and realizing there isn't enough money for rent - and being

solely responsible for figuring out what to do.

Money makes people weird. Most people. Us included.

My hope is that if our bank account ever gets that far from the red

again - which I'm sure will knowing how talented my Hubby is at what

he does- that we be rock firm on our god. On eachother and on our

children. That we keep ourselves surrounded by people we trust to kick

us back to reality if we even come close to ugliness that we were.

So like I said.... A place of wow.

"wow god how will you get us out of

this one... Thank you god for loving us"